Former Community star Donald Glover explained the notes he posted on Instagram Monday, and said he was just venting.
Glover wrote in one Instagram post, “I’m afraid people hate who I really am. I’m afraid I hate who I really am.” In another one, he confessed that he felt like he was “letting everyone down” and that he was afraid Community creator Dan Harmon hated him. He also explained that he didn’t leave the show to rap, and that he wanted to be on his own.
The 25-year-old told People Wednesday that he was just blowing off some steam.
“That night, we had a show, and then afterwards, I had this moment of feeling like, ‘What’s the point? Why am I even here?'” Donald Glover told the magazine. “I just wanted to write down my feelings. I definitely was just expressing myself.”
He also said while he has been feeling a little down lately, he wouldn’t go so far as saying he is depressed.
“If I’m depressed, everybody’s depressed,” he said. “I don’t think those feelings are that different from what everybody’s feeling. Most people just don’t tell everybody.”
The rapper, who performs under the name Childish Gambino, also said he was tired of lying about his feelings.
“I was just tired of telling people I was tired. It felt like every day someone would ask, ‘What’s wrong. Are you OK?'” he said. “And I would say, ‘I’m tired, I’m tired.’ I didn’t want to do that anymore. I guess sometimes not telling the truth is just as bad as telling a lie.”
Donald Glover also said, at the end of the day, he is glad he posted the notes to Instagram.
“I’m glad people saw it. I feel like I got some stuff out there,” he said. “I got it off my chest. It felt like I had been holding on to something.”