Rihanna Admits She Is “Afraid” To Fall In Love Again Post-Chris Brown

Superstar Rihanna admits in the August issue of Harper’s Bazaar that she’s “afraid” to fall in love again after her tumultuous and story relationship with fellow musician Chris Brown.

The rebellious singer admits that the one area of her life where she’s a bit hesitant and gun-shy is her love life, confessing intimately that her relationship and abuse at the hands of Chris Brown rocked her emotionally and has made it difficult for her to find love again, notes USAToday. She says she’s “rebellious through my music, through my fashion, tattoos, and my hair. I have been conservative in my love life… it’s pretty much nonexistent. If I come across someone who I find really cool, I’ll hang out. But the minute I find that we’re getting too close I just—I don’t let people in.”

Despite circling rumors that she and Chris Brown are on the mend, Rihanna insists that she’s merely relegating the past to the past. Both Rihanna and Chris Brown have received severe backlash from their respective fanbases over their continued collaboration, notes MTV. “The fans could have said, ‘We don’t want anything to do with it,’ ” she said. “I understood that people had every right to be concerned about it. But I didn’t see it that way because I’m in a different place.”

Though she doesn’t name names, she’s obviously talking about Chris Brown when she admits that “I fell so hard [when I was in love]. I was really, really, really in love. The way it made me feel was priceless. And in a blink of an eye my whole life changed. Everything that I knew was different. I never thought I’d feel that pain in my life. I’m afraid of feeling that again.”

Changing topics, Rihanna also discussed her slender figure admitting that her weight-loss carried with it one undesirable side-effect: “I don’t know if there’s something going on with my body right now, but I’m eating everything in life!” Still, the singer is quite slim. “I miss my (rear). It just went away! I need a butt. I have an idea of one, but it’s not living up to its full potential right now.”

The August issue of Harper’s Bazaar hits stands on July 17th.