Khloe Kardashian Still Hurt By Lamar Odom’s Cheating, But Vows To Stay By His Side Through Recovery

Khloe Kardashian is still hurt by estranged husband Lamar Odom’s infidelity, but the reality television star has still vowed to stay by his side as he begins the long recovery from an apparent overdose.

Khloe has been by Lamar’s side since he was found unconscious in a Nevada brothel back in October, helping him through what appeared at one point to be his final moments, on through a miraculous recovery. But as she keeps a strong face in public, sources close to the Kardashian family stated that she remains torn apart by the cheating that reportedly sent their marriage crashing down.

“[Khloé] loves Lamar and wants to see him pull through but she’ll never forget how he broke her heart,” an insider told Life and Style magazine. “That still haunts her every time she looks at him in his hospital bed.”

Khloe and Lamar had a very public split, one that included allegations of drug abuse and infidelity by Lamar Odom. Khloe Kardashian reportedly pleaded for him to pull himself out of the downward spiral that ultimately broke up their marriage and helped cement Odom’s exit from the NBA.

Odom reportedly came around, trying to win back Khloe later on, but by then, she had moved on.

Khloe has reportedly forgiven Lamar Odom for the infidelity, but the source noted that “the pain is still there and it bothers her when people make comments about her relationships and don’t know the half [of it].”

While she remains committed to helping Odom, Khloe Kardashian is also squashing reports that they may be calling off their divorce. In response to a fan who slammed her for seemingly abandoning boyfriend James Harden, Khloe said that she and Lamar are in no way getting back together.

Khloe Kardashian and Lamar Odom appear to have a very complicated relationship. A source told Hollywood Life this week that Odom still “loves [Khloe] terribly” and is fighting to win her back, but at the same time he appears to realize that she is ready to move on.

“He loves her so much that he’s asked her to bring James [Harden] to see him,” the source said. “He wants to look James in his eyes, man to man, and tell him that if he doesn’t fully recover or things take a turn for the worse, he wants James to promise him that he’ll take great care of his wife Khloé and treat her like the queen she is.”

The situation is not only zapping Khloe Kardashian emotionally, but it is also affecting her physical health. While caring for Lamar she contracted a serious staph infection and was forced to cancel some planned appearances for her new book.

Khloe noted that the infection was worsened by the high level of stress she’s been under and her obligation to remain with Odom. In an interview this week, Khloe said that after staying in the hospital for close to three and a half weeks, she finally listened to the family and friends who were telling her to get out for a few hours and take care of herself.

“I had such anxiety going to the gym, but as soon as I left, and Kendall and I worked out with my trainer, I felt like, ‘Oh my god, I’m okay. I’m a human again!'” she said.

Khloe Kardashian is planning some more time away from Lamar Odom in the coming week. This weekend she announced that she would be hosting Thanksgiving dinner at her house, which is now the second time she’s hosted at her own home.

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