It’s been a huge year for Juno actress Ellen Page. As previously reported, the actress came out as gay on Valentine’s Day. After receiving tons of support from people in the LGBTQ community and her peers in Hollywood, the actress is discussing the powerful and scary moment she took by coming out.
Three months after she came out, Page stated that she’s in a completely different place than when she first came out to the world at the Human Rights Campaign event that supported the LGBTQ youth.
Speaking with Flare magazinefor the June issue Page said:
“The more time went by, the more something just happened, an Oh my god — I want to love someone freely and walk down the street and hold my girlfriend’s hand.”
The actress went back to that moment and described herself as “nervous” when she thought back to her big announcement.
“I was very nervous. I was very nervous, yes. Yes. Very, very nervous. Yes. I was emotional, deeply, deeply emotional.”
Page continued to describe the moment and compared it to how she feels presently about being gay.
“You think you’re in a place where you’re all I’m thrilled to be gay, I have no issues about being gay anymore, I don’t feel shame about being gay, but you actually do. You’re just not fully aware of it. I think I still felt scared about people knowing. I felt awkward around gay people; I felt guilty for not being myself.”
Although Page expected “so much more hate” after coming out, she did have to deal with some backlash when a pastor passed her a note on a flight condemning her lifestyle and signed the letter “Your Heavenly Daddy,” after chastising her for being gay. Page described the letter as “the worst kind of homophobia.”
Shortly after Page responded on her twitter account which sparked some controversy after it went viral:
2 da Pastor who wrote me-Being gay isn’t a belief.My soul isnt struggling& I don’t want arms of Heavenly Father around me.A girls arms? Yes.
— Ellen Page (@EllenPage) March 22, 2014
Ellen continued to explain just how horrible the moment was, telling Flare, “because it wasn’t just ‘You deserve to burn in hell.’ It was ‘While God thinks it’s lovely that you stood up for your beliefs, perhaps you’ve never had the loving arms of a father.’
Recently Ellen Page took a step back on her Twitter account, and while she does tweet important LGBT messages, these days she’s into tweeting photos of ridiculously adorable puppies and kittens too.