Chris Brown Admits He Contemplated Suicide After Assaulting Rihanna [Video]

Chris Brown is getting seriously candid about his 2009 assault on Rihanna.

Chris Brown opened up about his abusive relationship with his then-girlfriend in the newly released trailer for his upcoming documentary, Welcome to My Life, where Chris admitted that he contemplated suicide following his domestic abuse assault on Rihanna after the two attended a 2009 pre-Grammy Awards party.

“I felt like a f***ing monster,” Brown recalled of the night he physically abused Rihanna in the new documentary trailer, admitting that he was in such a dark place following the incident that he “was thinking about suicide and everything else. I wasn’t sleeping, I wasn’t eating. I just was getting high.”

“I went from being on top of the world, number one songs, being kind of like America’s sweetheart, to being public enemy number one,” Chris continued in the teaser, which also features commentary on his life and career from superstars like Jennifer Lopez, Usher, and Mike Tyson.

The revealing new documentary about Chris Brown’s life and career, which is yet to receive an official release date, also features an interview with Brown’s mom, Joyce Hawkins, who admitted that she thought she was going to lose her son following his 2009 domestic abuse charges.

“That was the worst day of my life and probably his life,” Hawkins claimed in the trailer. “I felt like I was going to lose my child.”

Chris’s new documentary trailer also features footage from Rihanna’s revealing 2012 appearance on Oprah’s Next Chapter, where she admitted to Oprah Winfrey that she believed Brown attacked her because he “needed help.”

“It became a circus and I felt protective. I felt like the only person they hate right now is him,” Rihanna told Oprah of Chris Brown, according to the New York Daily News. “It was a weird, confusing space to be in because as angry as I was, as angry and hurt and betrayed, I just felt like he made that mistake because he needed help.”

Chris Brown Contemplated Suicide After Assaulting Rihanna
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Rihanna also spoke out about Brown’s assault shortly after the violent incident occurred in an extremely candid interview with ABC’s 20/20, where she admitted that her relationship with Chris, which first began in 2007, became “dangerous” for both parties.

“The more in love we became, the more dangerous we became for each other,” Rihanna claimed during her 20/20 interview, according to MTV News, admitting that she and Chris were “equally as dangerous” for each other throughout their relationship.

Rihanna also recalled the night in question during the interview, where she confirmed that a text message Brown received from another woman in February 2009 became the root of the incident, which she revealed “escalated into [Chris] being violent toward me, and it was ugly.”

Chris Brown Contemplated Suicide After Assaulting Rihanna
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“He was clearly blacked out. There was no person when I looked at him,” Rihanna continued of then-boyfriend Chris Brown to host Diane Sawyer at the time. “It was almost as if he had nothing to lose. He had so much to lose. But it was almost as if he had nothing to lose. It wasn’t the same person that says I loved you. It definitely wasn’t those eyes.”

Rihanna then noted that Brown left her beaten and bloodied following the attack, which left her unsure of how to get home.

“I was bleeding, I was swollen in the face, so there was no way of me getting home,” Rihanna, who had just attended a pre-Grammy gala with Brown, admitted, “except for, my next option was to get out of the car and walk, start walking in a gown, in a bloody face. So I really don’t know what my plan was.”

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