In transcripts of secret testimony from fall 2014, Jodi Arias admitted to killing her boyfriend, Travis Alexander, and said she lied about it because she was in denial about the murder.
The secret transcript, published in full by the Arizona Repbulic, shows that Arias attorney, Jennifer Willmot, got right to the point, asking her right away if she killed Alexander.
“Yes,” Arias answered
“When was the first time you admitted that to anyone?” Willmot asked.
“In 2010,” she answered.
Willmot then asked Arias why it took her so long to admit to the murder, which took place in 2008.
“It took me that long to be able to admit to myself that – that I did it,” Arias said.
“Because – because what I did was so horrific that I couldn’t have – I could never have imagined myself doing that to another human being.”
Arias was found guilty of the first-degree murder of Alexander in May of 2014, but the jury that convicted her was unable to reach a unanimous decision on her sentencing.
A second jury was chosen in September of 2014 for her sentencing retrial, but according to USA Today, on October 30 – before any witnesses took the stand to help them decide Arias’ fate – Maricopa count Superior court Judge Sherry Stephens cleared the courtroom of media and members of the public for testimony from a “secret witness.”
The Inquisitr reports it was later reveled that Arias was the secret witness, and her attorneys had successfully argued for the secret testimony, saying that media coverage would “affect her concentration and her ability to answer questions” and because Arias had received death threats.
The Arizona Republic and KPNX-TV immediately sued for access to the courtroom and testimony and other local media outlets soon joined. Stephens refused to reverse her decision to keep the testimony private, and the case went to the Arizona Court of Appeals, which ruled in the media’s favor on November 3.
After admitting to the murder of her lover in the secret transcript, Arias goes on to express remorse. She then explains her bizarre actions in the days after the murder – driving to Utah to see another man and sending flowers to Alexander’s grandmother – as an attempt to cover her tracks by appearing as “normal” as possible. She also discusses her life before meeting Alexander and the early days of their relationship before her attorney abruptly ends the testimony on November 3 upon learning of the court’s ruling to allow media coverage.
Arias first denied killing Alexander, blaming his death on “masked intruders” and changing her story several times. However, evidence at Alexander’s house and her lies raised suspicions in investigators. She was soon charged with
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