Tom Sizemore’s Drugs Battle Detailed In New Memoir

Tom Sizemore’s drug battle has been detailed in his new memoir By Some Miracle I Made It Out of There, and the star known best for Natural Born Killers and Saving Private Ryan details how he achieved Hollywood fame and fortune — only to succumb to the ravages of addiction and lose it all.

In the book, Tom Sizemore explains drugs sparked a lengthy downfall and the loss of all the trappings of a successful career on screen.

In the autobiography, Sizemore calls himself a “spoiled movie star” and an “arrogant fool,” and writes:

“I was a guy who’d come from very little and risen to the top … I’d had the multimillion-dollar house, the Porsche, the restaurant I partially owned with Robert De Niro. And now I had absolutely nothing.”

And while his adventures (including a dalliance with Hollywood madam Heidi Fleiss, ending in a legal tangle) may sound like fun, Sizemore admits:

“I’ve led an interesting life, but I can’t tell you what I’d give to be the guy you didn’t know anything about.”

Sizemore is circumspect when it comes to his position in Hollywood after his long-term troubles — in By Some Miracle I Made It Out Of There, the actor details a relationship with Juliette Lewis during the filming of Natural Born Killers (which he says consisted mainly of porn and drugs binges) and says:

“Here’s how I feel at this point: I’d never hire me. If I weren’t me, I wouldn’t hire Tom Sizemore to make coffee or throw confetti on himself.”

Tom Sizemore’s drug reflections were also part of a recent book release interview with Access Hollywood, in which he discusses his relationship with Celebrity Rehab‘s Dr. Drew. The actor also mentions Mindy McCready, an alum who recently took her own life after the loss of her partner:

“It’s the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, getting a sponsor, going to meetings, getting a commitment, doing the steps, telling it to another person, that’s what you do. That’s a prescription. Everybody’s got the same prescription. Now, I filled mine and I used it. Mindy, on some level, I guess she didn’t.”

As the memoir drops, Tom Sizemore says he’s been free of drugs for three years.