Chrissy Teigen has broken her social media silence to pen a heartbreaking message to fans following the loss of her and her husband John Legend’s baby boy Jack.
The star shared the sad news that she had suffered a miscarriage in early October. The couple said they were in “deep pain” over the loss, as The Inquisitr reported.
After staying off Twitter and Instagram for a while, Chrissy wrote a statement on her Medium to thank her supporters and reflect on the whole experience.
“I didn’t really know how I would start this, no matter the room or state I was in, but it feels right to begin with a thank you,” she began her essay, describing the flowers, notes and social media messages they had received from strangers.
Chrissy, 34, went on to explain how she had been diagnosed with partial placenta abruption, which happens when the placenta partly or completely separates from the inner wall of the uterus.
Eventually, she was told by a doctor it was “time to say goodbye” to Jack. She recalled going into “full blown convulsions of snot and tears” before oxygen was placed over her nose and mouth.
“That was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness,” the model confessed.
Immediately after the miscarriage, Chrissy and John shared photos of themselves at the hospital, alongside a statement.
Reflecting on the photos, Chrissy revealed that she had asked her mom and John to take pictures, despite their reluctance.
“He hated it. I could tell. It didn’t make sense to him at the time,” she confessed, explaining that despite her family’s reaction, she knew it was necessary to record this memory.
In the essay, the star compared the situation to photographing their wedding or the births of their older children Luna and Miles in order to remember those moments.
Chrissy also told critics that she did not care how much they hated the pictures, since they had only been posted for people who had gone through a similar experience.
After sharing her essay, Chrissy tweeted that she had a “full on panic attack” knowing anyone had read it.
John performed at the Billboard Music Awards recently, dedicating his performance to his wife.
“This is for Chrissy,” the “All Of Me” songwriter tweeted.
“I’m in awe of the strength you’ve shown through the most challenging moments,” he added, writing that they had experienced the “miracle, power and joy” of birth together and had now felt its “inherent fragility.”