In an absolutely heart-wrenching post shared with her followers, Kara — who is the daughter of ex-cast member Jeana Keough — spoke about the heartbreak she’s felt since she tragically lost her second child with husband Kyle Bosworth exactly three months ago.
“I’m three months into the deepest pain I’ve ever felt. I’ve survived three months when I didn’t think I’d live another three seconds. How has it been so long since I smelled you and felt your weight?” she began.
According to the former reality star, each day she’s experienced since the loss of her son has felt like the longest day of her life. In fact, she described the past three months as a “summer solstice of suffering” before saying that despite all the heartache she’s endured, she’s been getting through, somehow.
“Time is pushing on, moving my body begrudgingly into another day. Another day further away from the last time I held you in my arms,” she explained.
Kara then asked her unborn child about the person he would be today, including questions about his personality, his hair, and his love of his parents. She also said she wondered if her older child would be sneaking into his room in an attempt to play with him when she and her husband were either asleep or busy.
“Would she even be able to lift you by now?” Kara wondered.
While little McCoy’s life was tragically cut short, Kara said that she and her family frequently see signs of him everywhere and feel his presence often. They also kiss him goodnight and make spaces for him in places he would have been had his life not been cut short.
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This bear weighs exactly 11 pounds and 4 ounces. Exactly the size of the hole in my heart. But thanks to this thoughtful gift, my arms don’t feel so painfully empty. I can’t quite articulate how much carrying the exact weight of McCoy against my body grounds me. I think my physical need for him will be there forever, the heaviness of his absence always present. But this sure helps. Thank you @kylieraedesigns for this big dude and thank you @mb_jackets for the custom ribbon. Also feeling thankful for my new (first) tattoo, with my son’s ashes in the ink… so that my baby can be with me always. He can stay forever in my arms this way, in the place he last rested. I know I’m privileged in my grief, to have the support of so many. It’s very hard to feel lucky right now, and yet, somehow, I know I am. That being said, I’m very much ready for the dick kicks to stop. To the poor Shipt shopper who remarked “the baby should have been born by now, right?” and the shocked insurance agent, and the others who didn’t mean to throw the grenades they did… when I say “It’s okay,” I don’t mean “I’m okay,” I’m saying I know you didn’t know. But I promise, you’re not upsetting me by “reminding” me, I’ll never need a reminder. I’m just sad that the answer to your question isn’t what I hoped it would be. It should be a joyful Q&A, not a landmine. It should be different. Instead, here I am, clutching a stuffed toy wishing it was a real boy. To my Instead Mamas, I thank you especially for all the continued comfort, encouragement, and love. And you’re right, it is getting easier to bear. (Look! I even did a pun. Good for me.)
As The Inquisitr previously reported, Kara revealed in April that her second child died during childbirth after suffering shoulder dystocia and a compressed umbilical cord. At the time, Kara confirmed that McCoy arrived on April 6 at 3:10 in the morning, weighing in at 11 pounds and four ounces.
Kara also confirmed that her son’s organs had been donated to save the lives of others.
As fans of The Real Housewives of Orange County will recall, the death of Kara’s son happened just weeks after she tragically lost her father, former MLB player Matt Keough, who died on May 1 at the age of 64.