Courtney Stodden Opens Up About Depression And Her Suicide Attempt

Reality show star Courtney Stodden, 25, is getting candid and opening up about the depression that she suffered last year. She also revealed that she attempted suicide in 2019. Courtney uploaded the video to her YouTube channel on January 20 after announcing that her divorce from 59-year-old actor Doug Hutchinson was finalized.

In the video, Courtney opened up about her suicide attempt and revealed that she tried to end her life by hanging herself.

“It’s no secret that I have struggled with depression. I didn’t see a way out of all the pain and the grief and the insanity that I’ve struggled with in my life. I just feel like it all got too much for me. I decided in a really drunken state that this was the best option,” Courtney explained.

Continuing to describe her experience, she then went into detail about her attempt and how “by the grace of God” her attempt didn’t work. She explained that she “can’t believe” she attempted suicide. She also admits that she has had to be hospitalized for panic attacks and that she has both lost and gained a lot.

Despite having gone through some difficult times in her life, Courtney maintained a positive attitude by adding, “Life is worth living. No matter what. No matter what other people have done to you.”

The Celebrity Big Brother star married Doug Hutchinson in 2011, and at the time, their marriage was highly controversial. Doug Hutchinson was 51-years-old when he married then 16-year-old Stodden with her parents’ permission. Despite the large age gap between the couple, they stayed together for many years, and at one point announced they were expecting a baby together. However, Courtney revealed she had suffered a miscarriage. In 2018, she filed for divorce from her husband, and she recently took to social media to reveal that her divorce was official.

Over the years, Courtney has modeled as well as written and recorded songs. In 2013, she appeared on the hit reality television show Celebrity Big Brother.

In her YouTube video, she opened up about her marriage and acknowledged that there was no way of getting around the fact that she was a child when it took place nine years ago. However, she explained that she didn’t think that Doug ever saw her as a child.

“I believe Doug and I had so much love that was toxic given the situation,” she explained in the video.

If you or someone you know is in crisis, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or contact the Crisis Text Line by texting TALK to 741741. For readers outside the U.S., visit Suicide.org or Befrienders Worldwide for international resources you can use to find help.