Michelle Carter, the young woman on trial for encouraging her boyfriend to commit suicide via text messages so she could be the “grieving girlfriend,” had the text messages sent between them put on blast today after they were released to the media. The court is attempting to prove that the constant harassment by Carter is what ultimately caused her boyfriend, Conrad Roy III, to kill himself.
Carter texted a friend, admitting to guilt, which certainly is not going to help her case.
“It’s my fault. I could have stopped him but I told him to get back in the car,” she wrote to friend Samantha Boardman.
Michelle Carter had urged her boyfriend to commit suicide via carbon monoxide poisoning in order to play the role of the “grieving girlfriend.” By the time Roy actually did kill himself in July of 2014, he had already attempted to take his own life a few times.
Carter, however, knew that her text messages were so inflammatory and horrible that they could land her in jail.
Some of her text messages were released in a court document.
At first, she attempted to tell him to get help. She urged her boyfriend to seek therapy or go to a mental hospital as he contemplated ending his life. He had asked her what she would do in his position, and she told him at one point that she would seek help. However, around July 8, 2014, the messages became less compassionate and helpful, and started to become her egging him on to end his life.
The text message exchange from July 8, 2014, is as follows.
Carter: “So are you sure you don’t wanna [kill yourself] tonight?”
Roy: “What do you mean am I sure?”
Carter: “Like, are you definitely not doing it tonight?”
Roy: “Idk yet I’ll let you know”
Carter: “Because I’ll stay up with you if you wanna do it tonight”
Roy: “Another day wouldn’t hurt”
Carter: “You can’t keep pushing it off, tho, that’s all you keep doing”
At one point, Roy tells Michelle Carter that he is scared to commit suicide because of how much it might affect his parents. Carter is not compassionate about their plight at all, and instead, she tells him that they will learn to accept it.
On July 14, she wrote him a long message assuring him that they will eventually move on with their lives.
“I think your parents know you’re in a really bad place. Im not saying they want you to do it, but I honestly feel like they can accept it. They know there’s nothing they can do, they’ve tried helping, everyone’s tried. But there’s a point that comes where there isn’t anything anyone can do to save you, not even yourself, and you’ve hit that point and I think your parents know you’ve hit that point. You said you’re mom saw a suicide thing on your computer and she didn’t say anything. I think she knows it’s on your mind and she’s prepared for it.”
“Everyone will be sad for a while, but they will get over it and move on. They won’t be in depression I won’t let that happen. They know how sad you are and they know that you’re doing this to be happy, and I think they will understand and accept it. They’ll always carry u in their heart,” she wrote to her boyfriend.
Other text messages show Michelle Carter telling him to use a generator in his truck instead of the water pump because she knows he can’t fail.
After days of planning and deciding, one final exchange was sent between the two, which was the night that Conrad Roy III killed himself.
Carter: “So I guess you aren’t gonna do it then, all that for nothing”
Carter: “I’m just confused like you were so ready and determined”
Roy: “I am gonna eventually”
Roy: “I really don’t know what I’m waiting for.. but I have everything lined up”
Carter: “No, you’re not, Conrad. Last night was it. You keep pushing it off and you say you’ll do it but u never do. Its always gonna be that way if u don’t take action”
Carter: “You’re just making it harder on yourself by pushing it off, you just have to do it”
Carter: “Do u wanna do it now?”
Roy: “Is it too late?”
Roy: “Idkk it’s already light outside”
Roy: “I’m gonna go back to sleep, love you I’ll text you tomorrow”
Carter: “No? Its probably the best time now because everyone’s sleeping. Just go somewhere in your truck. And no one’s really out right now because it’s an awkward time”
Carter: “If u don’t do it now you’re never gonna do it”
Carter: “And u can say you’ll do it tomorrow but you probably won’t”
Carter: “You just need to do it Conrad or I’m gonna get you help”
Carter: “You can’t keep doing this everyday”
Roy: “Okay I’m gonna do it today”
Carter: “Do you promise”
Roy: “I promise babe”
Roy: “I have to now”
Carter: “Like right now?”
Roy: “where do I go? :(”
Carter: “And u can’t break a promise. And just go in a quiet parking lot or something.”
Her defense lawyer maintains that Conrad Roy III had wanted to kill himself for years and that his client played a very minor role in the outcome of him ending his life.
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