Former Bachelorette star Trista Sutter suffered a nearly fatal seizure on Thursday, June 1, while on vacation with her family in Europe. The 44-year-old former star of The Bachelorette was vacationing with her husband, Ryan Sutter, and their children, Maxwell, 9, and Blakesley, 8, in Croatia, when she suffered a sudden massive seizure that landed her in a Croatian hospital after nearly taking her life.
She shared a selfie on Instagram on Friday, June 2, which showed her with monitors and patches attached to her upper body while recovering on a hospital bed. She captioned the photo with a lengthy emotional essay.
“This was me yesterday two hours after I had a seizure…,” she wrote in her Instagram post. “…two hours after I fell on my daughter’s chest and she watched, along with her brother and grandparents, in confusion and horror as her mommy stared blankly off into the distance and started turning blue.”
Sutter described her experience of the seizure as a “euphoric white dream.”
The seizure occurred as she and her family were planning to go on an adventure to “one of the most beautiful National Parks in Europe.” But instead, she “ended up in a euphoric white dream” and found herself in a Croatian hospital bed when she regained consciousness.
She was awoken from the “white dream” by the voices of her husband, Ryan, and her children, Maxwell and Blakesley.
“That was me yesterday… two hours after we were supposed to have an adventure… Instead, I ended up in a euphoric white dream.”
She shared on Instagram that her near-death experience has changed her view of life.
“I have an expiration date,” she wrote but admitted that she had always assumed carelessly that the date was after her children had grown up and graduated from college, got married and raised families of their own. But the unexpected brush with death changed her view and made her become keenly aware of the fragility of human life. It made her realize that her “expiration date” could come anytime, at home or abroad.
“I’ve always envisioned that date being sometime after my kids have graduated college, met the loves of their lives and created families of their own,” she wrote on Instagram. “But I was reminded yesterday that it could come anytime, in any country, whether I’m surrounded by strangers or people I love, or neither, or both.”
The experience changed not only her view of life but her perspective on purpose in life. Sutter wrote that she would now focus on living life to the fullest and strive to cultivate the positive attitudes of gratitude, love, kindness, and living a less stressful life while spreading joy.
“I vow to try my best to live this life to the fullest,” she wrote. “To embrace gratitude and the lessons I wrote about over 3 years ago with a newly acquired perspective. To stress less. To love more. To listen. Be kind. Spread joy.”
“To be a better version of myself as a wife, mother, sister, cousin, niece, aunt, neighbor, daughter, and friend.”
Sutter then thanked the tourists and locals who gave assistance to her family. She also thanked her husband and children, friends and the “Bachelornation” for their support and love over the years.
“Thank you to the kind tourists and Croatians who held my hand, wiped my tears, and hugged my kids. You will forever be remembered.”
“I don’t share these words for your pity,” she concluded, “but to inspire you to take them and be thankful for your life and blessings. Tell the people you love how you feel and live with grateful enthusiasm.”
Trista met her husband, Ryan, on The Bachelorette. She was the first-ever star of the show after it premiered in January of 2003. Trista and Ryan got married in December of 2003.
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