Kate Moss Confesses Breakdown After Sexy Calvin Klein Shoot With Mark Wahlberg

Model Kate Moss confesses she had a “breakdown” after one of her first big gigs, a sexy underwear shoot for Calvin Klein with Mark Wahlberg, then known as “Marky Mark,” as she rose to fame in the 90s.

Kate Moss’ breakdown was something the supermodel discussed in a recent Vanity Fair interview, when she explains that the pressure of the shoot was a lot to deal with as a teen. Moss is now 38, but she recalls being young and new to the modeling world when she scored the big ad back before Wahlberg was a big name in film.

Kate Moss’ breakdown, before she met former boyfriend Johnny Depp (the pair dated for about four years in the 90s), came amid pressure she felt to pose topless. Moss says that her youth and modeling inexperience were in part barriers to pose semi-nude, but her small breasts and a mole on one side made her terribly self-conscious.

But the model also explains that she was told to agree or “we’re not going to book you again.” Moss says that she would ” lock [herself] in the toilet and cry and then come out and do it,” and explains of her breakdown:

“I had a nervous breakdown when I was 17 or 18, when I had to go and work with Marky Mark and Herb Ritts … It didn’t feel like me at all. I felt really bad about straddling this buff guy. I didn’t like it. I couldn’t get out of bed for two weeks. I thought I was going to die.”

After her breakdown, Kate Moss says that a photographer friend stepped in to advise her — but that overall, there is not a lot of support for young models:

“I went to the doctor, and he said, ‘I’ll give you some Valium,’ and [photographer] Francesca Sorrenti, thank God, said, ‘You’re not taking that.’ It was just anxiety. Nobody takes care of you mentally. There’s a massive pressure to do what you have to do. I was really little, and I was going to work with Steven Meisel. It was just really weird — a stretch limo coming to pick you up from work. I didn’t like it. But it was work, and I had to do it.”

Moss also admits her breakup with Depp was intense, admitting “years and years of crying” after the split.