Courtney Stodden sadly suffered a miscarriage only three months into her pregnancy. On Wednesday, Stodden penned an open letter to her unborn child. This would have been the first child for both Courtney, 21, and her husband, Doug Hutchinson. Stodden posted the heartfelt letter to her Instagram account.
“My precious Angel…I never had a chance to hold your tiny hand. Never will I get to kiss your little warm feet. Never will I have the fortune to look into your precious eyes. … I’ll never get over this … losing you. I hope that you know I wanted to give you life … a beautiful life — and desired so much to watch you grow into an incredible human being,” the reality star concluded. “I know that you’re my guardian angel.”
It was reported by Us Weekly that Stodden suffered a miscarriage when she was 13-weeks-pregnant.
“It is with a heavy heart to inform you that last week Courtney Stodden suffered a heartbreaking miscarriage. Courtney and her husband, Doug, are at an emotional loss for words and are using this time to grieve with their close family and friends…Please respect their privacy as the couple try to cope with losing their precious baby and seek the support they both need.”
During this time, the former teen bride took to her Instagram account to share an image with an inspiring message for other mothers who have lost a baby in the same manner. “Babies lost in the womb were never touched by fear, they were never cold, never hungry, never alone & importantly always knew love,” the quote read.
Stodden spoke about her fears of becoming a mother to Us Weekly, “I already love this baby so much…I just fear the thought of motherhood.”
Stodden Using Alcohol To Deal With Loss?
During the beginning of her pregnancy, Courtney was very vocal about her depression, now that Stodden has miscarried, it seems the depression has hit the Couples Therapy star harder than ever.
“I suffer from depression…My depression affects my appetite, sleeping patterns and overall perspective on life. At times, I have severe insomnia and other times I find myself sleeping too much. I have feelings of hopelessness but experience many moments of absolute euphoria.”
Just hours before posting the Instagram message, Courtney tweeted, “Having a hard day #sad.” At just about the same time, Courtney shared this on Instagram.
Courtney posted a few concerning photos of herself holding a glass filled with what looks to be champagne while revealing how lonely and sad she is currently feeling. Stodden even mentions she’s using alcohol to numb her feelings of “deep loneliness.”
Courtney Stodden made headlines in 2011 when she was 16-years-old and married 50-year-old actor, Doug Hutchinson in Las Vegas, Nevada. The couple met when Courtney went to take acting lessons from Doug. In 2012, the couple created a stir in VH1’s Couples Therapy house. During this time, the couple wanted to work on their marriage issues that resulted from their age difference. Instead, Courtney’s minimal clothing and heavy flirting with the male cast members caused a stir. Many of the cast mates were distracted by Courtney Stodden being only 17-years-old on the show and referred to Doug as a “predator.”
The couple broke up in 2013 but quickly reconciled nine months later, with further plans to renew their vows. Courtney and Doug are now approaching their fifth wedding anniversary. Courtney had great things to say about her marriage, according to Cosmopolitan.
“Our relationship right now is really, really good…We’re really strong and we’re very happy. We’re getting ready to celebrate our fifth wedding anniversary and we’re absolutely going to renew our vows for our fifth wedding anniversary. So yeah,we’re doing really, really well!”
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