George Sodini, 48, was lonely, miserable and angry and not planning on taking it for very much longer. (From his blog, penned by Sodini.)
5-10, 155 lbs.
Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania USA
You’d know that if you read his blog. You’d also know that he’d twice planned and “chickened out” on shooting rampages at his gym, LA Fitness in Bridgeville, PA. Like many lone shooter types, Sodini’s list of grievances was long and seemingly somewhat random. He writes at length about an acquaintance he both loathes and envies, speculating on the acquaintance’s daughter’s promiscuity.
Police say Sodini, 48, entered the gym around 8am and targeted a “women’s aerobics” class. He turned off the lights and began shooting the women in the dark. By the time Sodini was dead, so were at least 4 women, with several critically wounded women transported to area hospitals.
Sodini left a suicide note among other things on his blog (warning, TL;DR, racist, disturbing and sad) detailing his intentions and his motivations. Sadly for him and for everyone, like most parts of his life, no one was even listening.
August 2, 2009:
The biggest problem of all is not having relationships or friends, but not being able to achieve and acquire what I desire in those or many other areas. Everthing stays the same regardless of the effert I put in. If I had control over my life then I would be happier. But for about the past 30 years, I have not
August 3, 2009:
I took off today, Monday, and tomorrow to practice my routine and make sure it is well polished. I need to work out every detail, there is only one shot. Also I need to be completely immersed into something before I can be successful. I haven’t had a drink since Friday at about 2:30. Total effort needed. Tomorrow is the big day.
Unfortunately I talked to my neighbor today, who is very positive and upbeat. I need to remain focused and absorbed COMPLETELY. Last time I tried this, in January, I chickened out. Lets see how this new approach works.
Maybe soon, I will see God and Jesus. At least that is what I was told. Eternal life does NOT depend on works. If it did, we will all be in hell. Christ paid for EVERY sin, so how can I or you be judged BY GOD for a sin when the penalty was ALREADY paid. People judge but that does not matter. I was reading the Bible and The Integrity of God beginning yesterday, because soon I will see them.
I will try not to add anymore entries because this computer clicking distracts me.
Also, any of the “Practice Papers” left on my coffee table I used or the notes in my gym bag can be published freely. I will not be embarased, because, well, I will be dead. Some people like to study that stuff. Maybe all this will shed insight on why some people just cannot make things happen in their life, which can potentially benefit others.
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