Michelle Rodriguez Jealous Of Paul Walker’s Death, Took Psychedelic Drug Ayahuasca To Cope

Michelle Rodriguez, along with the rest of the Fast and Furious cast, was completely devastated when her co-star Paul Walker passed away unexpectedly in a November 2013 fiery car crash.

Now, nearly three years later, Rodriguez has opened up about Walker’s death and how she dealt with the pain from losing him.

In a clip posted on TMZ from the new controversial documentary The Reality of Truth (created by Michael Zapolin and produced by Adam Singer), Michelle talked about her feelings regarding Paul’s untimely death while she was reportedly under the influence of a psychedelic plant/drug called Ayahuasca.

“I have to say, you know, when I lost Paul, I went through about a year of just being an animal,” Rodriguez admitted during the interview with host Mike “Zappy” Zapolin. “Like, what could I do, physically, to just get my mind off of existentialism? Get my mind off of how transient life is and how we come here and can just disappear at any moment. How could I get my mind off that?”

While she was visiting Peru with Zapolin, Michelle said she went a bit crazy and experimented with the Peruvian psychedelic plant/drug Ayahuasca, which she said brought about “the destruction of everything I’ve ever known…I had an awakening.”

According to a 2014 article from CNN,Ayahuasca is a psychedelic drink that is attracting more and more tourists to the Amazon. The plan/drug is allegedly used to cure everything from post-traumatic stress disorder, to extreme paralyzing anxiety. Not only is the drink being sought by war vets for PTSD, Hollywood celebrities, including Sting and Lindsay Lohan, are also endorsing the drug, which is currently illegal in the United States except for religious purposes. Lohan said the drug was “eye-opening” and “intense.” It is important to note that Ayahuasca is not a cure, and must be used with other therapies. It has also led to the deaths of many Amazon tourists, and many reported physical and sexual assaults from those using the drug.

“I did everything I could possibly do to hide from myself and I’ll tell you that my Ayahuasca trip made me sad that he left me here,” she said. “It wasn’t a sadness that he’s gone, it’s more like a jealousy that he’s there first.”

According to the documentary’s website, The Reality of Truth is a very controversial film that “explores the relationship between spirituality, religion, and psychedelics. The documentary will feature several top thought leaders including Deepak Chopra, Ram Dass, Marianne Williamson, Sri Sri Ravi Shankar, among others, and will explore the many “myths about reality. It includes first of its kind interviews with top spiritual gurus, celebrities, and people of all faiths, about this intriguing connection and their personal experiences with spirituality and transcendence.”