Josh Duggar may have assumed that life would be upbeat after he left the rehab treatment center where he hid out for months following reports that he had molested five underage girls as a teen, cheated on his wife Anna Duggar and was addicted to porn. But the oldest son of the Duggar family, who was revealed to have paid for subscriptions on the Ashley Madison website devoted to helping those who wanted to be unfaithful to their spouses, is finding that his assumptions were wrong, a source told Hollywood Life.
Although Anna is standing by her man, none of the other 19 Kids And Counting family members, including his mother Michelle Duggar and father Jim Bob Duggar, want to be associated with the scandal-tarnished Josh.And that's put Duggar in a place where he's constantly baffled and alone, revealed the source.
"Life out of rehab is not getting any easier for him. Josh is really sad right now and feels overwhelmingly disgraced. He is afraid to go anywhere. He is in hiding and not coming out for anything. Josh is depressed and not dealing well with life after rehab and scandal."Moreover, Duggar is experiencing guilt over the humiliation he caused his family, according to that same insider. With Josh in hiding and the Duggar family shunning him, it's put the father of four on an island in the midst of Duggarville. "He feels horribly guilty about everything he has done to his family, and so he does not want to be seen right now," clarified the insider. "What's worse is that no one wants to visit him. He is being shunned by his big family. The other Duggar family members are ignoring him and refuse to acknowledge that he is back."
The combination of reports about molesting some of his sisters with Josh's own confession of cheating on Anna and having a porn addiction have turned his family against him. Viewers of the 19 Kids And Counting spin-off, Jill & Jessa: Counting On, saw Anna admitting that some felt Josh did not deserve her love.
"The weight of everything is there and so it definitely drives me deeper to my faith. God's grace can give me the strength to love Josh when others would say he doesn't deserve it," declared Anna.
One of Duggar's brothers insists that the family is moving on and forgiving Josh, reported Us Weekly.
"The devil took his best shot," declared John-David Duggar, 26. "And he tried to take our whole family down, but God has really used this to — instead of tearing us apart as a family, he's using it to draw us together … We've forgiven. We're moving on and we're looking to the future."
When the news broke that the Duggar family TV series, Jill and Jessa: Counting On, had been picked up by TLC, speculation that Josh would be among the stars flourished. However, Us Weekly reports confirmation from a TLC rep that the oldest Duggar son will not appear on camera.
"He's considering going on a public speaking circuit," revealed that source. "He has to make money and this could be very lucrative for him. It's likely Josh will travel the world to talk at Christian fundamentalist events this year."
And that insider insists that in addition to Anna and his sisters, Josh will star on the new 19 Kids And Counting spinoff.
"Everyone is certain Josh will be making an appearance on 'Counting On,' he'll bring the show even more viewers," claims the insider.
[Image via Anna Duggar/Twitter]