Sam Smith Talks Suicide, Weight Loss And Relationships

Sam Smith seems to be feeling better in his skin these days. After revealing that his weight made him contemplate suicide, the singer says that he doesn’t mind being alone these days.

Earlier this month, Sam Smith made a shocking revelation about his weight struggles and how it made him consider suicide. He noticed that his relationship with food was getting out of control. Smith sat down for an interview with Today’s Natalie Morales, where he opened up about his sexuality, his nearly 50 pound weight loss, and his recovery from vocal cord surgery earlier this summer. Smith joked that he needed to stop writing songs that require him to strain his voice. The conversation took a serious turn when he talked about his weight loss.

“My relationship with food has just completely changed. During the process of this album [In the Lonely Hour], I was just getting bigger and bigger and bigger.”

Sam also opened up to GQ Magazine, revealing that seeing photos of himself at a heavier weight made him contemplate suicide.

“I saw a picture of me on New Year’s Eve topless on a beach in Sydney and it made me want to kill myself. I just thought I was huge. I’ve had issues with my weight since I was a kid. My dad became a fitness trainer when I was 12 and he tried to help me, but I’ve always had issues.”

Not only is Sam battling his unhealthy relationship with food, but he’s also addressing his “issues” with relationships, revealing that he’s never been in a long-term relationship with another man until last year. Smith’s first heartbreak was obviously devastating for the musician. The “Stay With Me” singer says he doesn’t mind being single these days since he’s more “comfortable” with himself.

“I was in a relationship for a few months before Christmas, but I really have an issue with relationships. In fact, I have never really had a relationship up to a few months ago. I am just very comfortable and happy alone.”

The 23-year-old singer also recalls the times he felt “sad and lonely” due to feelings from unrequited love. Sam’s debut album was based on those emotions.

“I am lucky in that respect but at the same time I have moments where I have fallen in love with people that don’t love me back and I have very sad and lonely moments.”

The British crooner says that he needs to work on himself and his relationship issues before he jumps into another relationship. Smith also hinted he’s been dipping his foot in the dating pool.

“I think I need to work at allowing someone to come into my life. I am a bit of a control freak I think. But I am starting to have relationships here and there.”

Sam Smith may have built his success on unrequited love. Earlier this year, he swept the 2015 Grammy Awards with four awards for Best New Artist; “Stay with Me” won Record of the Year and Song of the Year, and In the Lonely Hour earned Best Pop Vocal Album. But, Smith admits he doesn’t want to be known for singing love songs. Smith also wants to write about his other life experiences.

“At the moment I am writing about being 23 and maybe doing some reckless things. I think it’s important for me to have fun and maybe not be in relationships. Maybe my next album will be the opposite of ‘In The Lonely Hour.’ However, I think everything is about love all the time, isn’t it, really?”

Sam Smith has already taken a different direction with his music by covering Drake’s “Hotline Bling” during his appearance on the Live Lounge. He’s also working in the studio again with EDM duo Disclosure.

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