Emma Watson, Horrendous Time With Boyfriend Revealed, Talks ‘Harry Potter’ & HeForShe Feminist Campaign [Photos]

Emma Watson had a horrendous time during her breakup with Matthew Janney. Emma revealed that she became so upset as her relationship with the British rugby player intensified that at one point, Watson vowed to keep silent for a week, reported Entertainment Tonight.

And in contrast to Emma’s role in Harry Potter, no magic occurred to break the spell of a bad romance.

Watson, 25, recalled what happened to make her term it a “horrendous” time.

“I felt really uncomfortable, even before my relationship ended,” said Emma. “I went on a silent retreat, because I really wanted to figure out how to be at home with myself.”

And despite all those reports (denied) that Watson and Prince Harry are dating, Emma has had no love interests in her life since Matthew.

Does Watson’s film career turn off men?

“The boyfriends or partners I’ve had have generally made me feel really cherished,” denied Emma in response to that question. “They’ve built me up. I certainly haven’t found that with doing all that I do or being all that I am, that I’ve struggled in my love life.”

As to why she’s become an actress, Watson finds it a mystery as to why she took on the Harry Potter acting roles, she told Vogue.

“It’s something I’ve really wrestled with. I’ve gone back and I’ve quizzed my parents,” she admitted about her Harry Potter career. “When I was younger, I just did it. I just acted. It was just there. So now when I receive recognition for my acting, I feel incredibly uncomfortable. I tend to turn in on myself. I feel like an imposter… It was just something I did.”

In contrast, Emma’s HeForShe gender equality campaign is something she did with full passion. Watson wants to combine her acting career with her new role as a United Nations Goodwill Ambassador.

“Part of me relaxed after I took on that position, it gave me a sense of belonging and purpose,” revealed Emma. “Everything clicked in to place, in a way that it hadn’t before. I understood what I’m here to do and knew where to channel all this energy that has been coming at me. I now feel this sense of peace. People say that I’m different since I did it.”

As the Inquisitr reported, Watson has charged Hollywood with discriminating against women.

“We want to end gender inequality — and to do that we need everyone to be involved,” she said. “We don’t just want to talk about it, but make sure it is tangible.”

And Emma revealed that she feels she has been discriminated against because of her gender since she was 8-years-old.

“I started questioning gender-based assumptions when at eight I was confused at being called ‘bossy,’ because I wanted to direct the plays we would put on for our parents—but the boys were not,” recalled Watson. “When at 14 I started being sexualized by certain elements of the press. When at 15 my girlfriends started dropping out of their sports teams because they didn’t want to appear ‘muscly.'”

Emma hopes that her campaign will change those concerns for other girls and women.

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