Before he started his journey as an actor and director, star Shane Dawson built his empire on YouTube. So, it’s only natural that Dawson would release a very personal confession on YouTube.
Dawson, 26, who has dealt with bullying throughout his teens, came out as bisexual on his channel on YouTube. A truly emotional Dawson, which is a 180 from his brash and zaney attitude that he displays in his short videos, Shane addressed the confusion about his sexuality.
“I never thought I would be making this—ever, but I woke up this morning and I just had to. I didn’t want to do my hair. I just wanted to turn on my computer and talk to you. I just want to be honest.”
He continued, “I’m making this video because I feel like it could help a lot of people. Over the last year, I have been extremely sexually confused. I mean, my whole life. But this last year is when it really hit me. I always wished that I was gay, that I was just 100 percent gay—for so many reasons. No. 1, that means I would know who I was.”
“No. 2, it would be a lot easier for me to be accepted by people because I wear wigs and dresses on the internet and I’m feminine and all these things. It’d be so much easier to be just like, ‘Yeah, I’m gay.’ But I’m not. I’m not really gay and I can’t sit here and say that I am because that’s not real and that’s not genuine. But I also can’t sit here and say that I’m straight. This is something I’ve come to the conclusion through therapy and from being honest with myself. I am bisexual.”
As many fans know, Shane has dated YouTuber Lisa Schwartz for years, and has been struggling with his sexuality. He said that he felt guilty about his feelings for other men while in a relationship with Schwartz. “I started being attracted to guys as well. I didn’t tell her. I didn’t tell anybody. I started really hating myself and really being ashamed and scared.”
“I was very sad because I didn’t want her to think that I was gay and that I was hiding it from her and that I was using her as a beard, because that’s what the whole Internet probably thinks.”
Dawson goes on to say that it was only through therapy that he was helped to figure his sexuality out and admit to himself where he stood. What he realized is that he’s been hiding this part of himself throughout his whole childhood.
After he posted the video, both Shane and Lisa posted tweets to fans that were reacting to the news.
thank u guys for the support. i know “bisexual” is something that gets made fun of & its scary to talk about it but just know u arent alone.
— Shane Dawson (@shanedawson) July 7, 2015
Guys, I love you. And I love Shane. I’m trying my best. Just give me a second to process. Thank you for sending. — Lisa Schwartz (@lilschwartzie) July 8, 2015
Ironically enough, throughout the years, Shane Dawson has been accused of being homophobic based on the content of his videos.
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