Chris Brown Says ‘I’m A Dog’ And ‘I Hate Myself’

Chris Brown

Hip-hop artist Chris Brown has taken to Instagram to post a seemingly heartfelt message to his followers. In the post, Brown reflects on a troubled past which has seen the 26-year-old singer in and out of jail, sentenced to five years probation as a result of a domestic violence assault on his then-girlfriend Rihanna, and spending time in rehab.

Brown has twice been kicked out of rehab facilities for breaching their rules. Brown has recently been freed from his lengthy period of probation but has had to cancel part of a tour after being banned from entering Canada as a result of his criminality. Brown has been sued over an alleged homophobic assault, and it appears that court documents have claimed that he suffers from bipolar disorder.

I'm Konfuzed, I always thought I knew the concept of love. Fame and Money can get in the way of that. Most of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes. I can't speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling. There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see. I talk to God a lot now. He's given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts becuz of my impulsive personality. The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it becuz of the choices I've made or mistakes. I tend to accept the negative or the riff raff becuz I know what it's like to be a young black "nigga" in America. I always see the good in people even when they don't see it. I love others more than myself at times. Everything u see on the surface does not reflect what's inside. This is my white flag. I surrender to life and all its blessings. I refuse to be petty and attention seeking. To know me is to love me. Good Bad UGLY! Sincerely, Konfuzed

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Brown’s lengthy Instagram post shows the singer relaxing with a glass of wine with the ocean in the background and is accompanied by a lengthy and reflective post.

The Belfast Telegraph reports that in the post, Brown reflects that fame and money “can get in the way” of love. Brown claims that most of his “issues” have been caused by his feelings and his “impulsive personality.”

“[M]ost of my issues always deal with love and me being in my feelings. Not to mention me being a dog sometimes.”

I can’t speak for everyone but I can say that my actions contributed a lot to my karma. Being jealous and angry and controlling. There has been times where I looked in the mirror and hated the person I see.”

Business Standard reports that Brown wants to turn his life and his career around after his troubles and the controversy he has been involved in. It seems that Brown is looking to a new relationship with God to help him to achieve that.

“I talk to god a lot now. He’s given me so much and I feel like I waste his gifts [because] of my impulsive personality. The world is full of negativity and I feel I play a part in it [because] of the choices I’ve made or mistakes.”

Brown clearly feels that a lot of his negative experiences have been as a result of growing up as a young black man in the U.S. Brown concludes his post by asking people accept that what they “see on the surface does not reflect what’s inside” of him.

It remains to be seen whether or not Chris Brown can turn his life around, but it would seem that he is determined to try.

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