Holly Madison, former Playboy bunny and one of many girlfriends to Hugh Hefner, has laid it all out on the table in a memoir that is to be released June 23. The memoir is titled Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny, and delves into life behind the walls of the Playboy Mansion.
Madison confided to Us Weekly recently as to her intentions for the memoir.
“I’m excited to finally share my story and what I’ve learned from my personal experiences both inside and outside of the Playboy Mansion. I think my stories will surprise people and I’m looking forward to lifting the veil of mystique and clearing up the misconceptions so often associated with my life.”
Among those misconceptions is the view that her time spent as a Playboy bunny was all glitz and glamour. The now-35-year-old wife of Pasquale Rotella and mother to toddler Rainbow equates her time at the mansion with a nightmare. Advertisement material for the penned work go even further and share a dark secret that readers can expect to be expanded on within the memoir. Wonderwall relays the promotional material for the book offered by the publisher Harper Collins.
“Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all—and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”
Reasons for such intense dark and destructive feelings are also touched on via the publisher’s description of the book, indicating that Holly was bound by strict routines and rules, and the subject of backstabbing by other bunnies, including those who she rocketed to fame with while on the E! reality show The Girls Next Store. Mention of “manipulation” and “oppressive” treatment also help to highlight why Madison holds her experience while there in such a negative light.
It is incredible to believe that Madison was so down and suffering from depression while living life for so many years in Hef’s presence, seeing as she appeared so confident and happy on the reality TV show. This perhaps sheds light on the debatable issue that reality TV is not quite as “real” as production companies sell them to viewers as being.
Madison has certainly found her happiness again since marrying the father of her child back in 2013. With a loving relationship, a beautiful little girl, and a new book set for release, it seems Holly Madison has made some changes for the better.
[Feature image courtesy of Posh24]