Dean McDermott has revealed in a recent interview that he seriously planned to commit suicide, following a cheating scandal he was involved in, as well as some allegedly “out of control” alcohol and drug abuse on his part.
The revelations were made when the True Tori reality TV star spoke to Access Hollywood, telling them that as a result of his planned suicide, he was even placed on a 5150 at a psych ward.
“I don’t ever want to be in that dark place again where I wanted to take my life,” said McDermott.
According to him, Dean McDermott felt so guilty after having a one-night stand with a woman named Emily Goodhand that he firmly intended to take his own life.
“I was driving around in my truck with a loaded 9 mm. I was put on a 5150 at the UCLA psych ward. [My son] Liam had a performance and I didn’t want to miss that performance… I had plans that night to do it. The fact that I cheated on my wife, I wish never happened. I wish my alcohol and drug use hadn’t gotten out of control.”
One of the other issues that was bothering McDermott, as he revealed to the publication, is the fact he can’t deal anymore with the reality TV thing.
“We have five more shows left. I can’t do this anymore, I can’t keep opening a vein, opening my soul and sharing my feelings and thoughts and demons with the world. I don’t watch it. I can’t. It’s really difficult. I can’t do it anymore, for my soul.”
Fortunately, Dean McDermott did not succeed that night in taking his own life, and spoke about how much he loves his wife Tori and wants to make his marriage work.
“I still love [Tori] to death and that’s why we’re still together. I hold out a lot of hope. If you don’t have hope what do you have? I love this woman, regardless of what I’ve done. I love her and want to be with her. I want to grow old with her at this moment she feels the exact same way,” he said.