Singer Ke$ha left rehab two months ago, and now for the first time she’s talking about her personal demons. Ke$ha has blamed her eating disorder on the music industry, and the pressure people in the industry put on young impressionable women to lose weight.
In a revealing essay Ke$ha wrote in Elle UK about the “unrealistic expectations” the industry put upon her as her star was rising and her songs were topping the charts.
“I convinced myself that being sick, being skinny was part of my job.”
She said this is the attitude and lifestyle she took on because the music industry asks this of their pop idols.
“I’ve always tried to be a crusader for loving yourself, but I’d been finding it harder and harder to do personally. I felt like part of my job was to be as skinny as possible, and to make it happen, I had been abusing my body.”
In addition to targeting the music industry for putting her eating disorder on the fast track, Ke$ha also revealed what her time in rehab was like. According to the singer, she said that she had fear that many would think she had a drug addiction. Instead, she discussed the paranoia she experienced due to the music industry’s issues with body image.
“The music industry has set unrealistic expectations for what a body is supposed to look like, and I started becoming overly critical of my own body because of that. I felt like people were always lurking, trying to take pictures of me with the intention of putting them up opine or printing them in magazines and making me look terrible.”
Ke$ha who sang peppy pop songs about being yourself and standing on your own with songs like “Warrior” and “We R Who We R,” felt like a fraud because of her issues with body image.
“I felt like a liar, telling people to love themselves as they are, while I was being hateful to myself and really hurting my body. I wanted to control things that weren’t in my power, but I was controlling the wrong things. I convinced myself that being sick, being skinny was part of my job. It felt safer somehow.”
Ke$ha entered rehab in January for two months and checked out in March. Now the singer admits that she is much “stronger” after facing her demons.
Click here to read the full essay.
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