Adam Lanza’s Father Wishes His Son Had Never Been Born

Just a few days before Christmas in 2012, Adam Lanza went on a killing spree at the Sandy Hook Elementary School in Newtown, Connecticut. He shot and killed 20 6-to-7 year-old children and 6 educators. Before driving to the school premises, Adam killed his 52-year-old mother, Nancy, in their home using a Bushmaster rifle. When the authorities arrived at the school premises, Adam killed himself with a gunshot to the head.

In a recent interview with The New Yorker magazine, Adam’s father, Peter Lanza broke his silence for the first time since the gruesome shooting. He said that he had not seen his son for a couple of years at the time of the incident and he always thinks about the things he could have done differently that might have prevented what happened at Sandy Hook. Lanza thinks that any kind of relationship he could have had with his son would have been worthwhile. “No outcome could be worse” than what happened on that fateful day in Connecticut. He also confessed that he still beats himself up for the fact that his son is a murderer. “You can’t get any more evil,” he said.

Nancy and Peter Lanza separated in 2009. Peter Lanza last saw his son in 2010. He wanted to reach out to Adam, but Nancy told him that their son did not want to see him. Lanza even considered hiring an investigator to know his son’s whereabouts.

Lanza also opened up about Adam’s childhood and said that he was a normal kid who spent a lot of time playing Legos with him. When Adam was 13 years old, he was diagnosed with Asperger’s syndrome, a type of autism that is often accompanied by difficulties in interacting socially. However, Lanza always thought that the syndrome masked something more, such as schizophrenia.

As Adam entered middle school, the signs that there was something wrong with him became more evident. Peter Lanza remembers his son as being anxious, awkward in social situations, and having difficulty learning. Adam was never open to the idea of having therapy and never even acknowledged having Asperger’s.

When the shootings occurred, Lanza believed that his son had no affection for him. He also thinks that his son would have killed him in an instant if he had the chance. “I don’t question that for a minute,” he said in the interview.

Lanza wishes his son had never been born. “That didn’t come right away,” he said. It is not a natural thought to have about a kid, but that’s where he is in life right now.

Scientists from the University of Connecticut are still studying Adam’s DNA and trying to look for mutations that may have caused his behavior.

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