Winning an Oscar is supposed to be the highlight of someone’s career, but for Nicole Kidman, it was just a reminder of what she was missing. Back in 2003, the actress won her first Academy Award for Best Actress for her efforts in The Hours. Back then, Kidman said all she could think about was her failed marriage to Tom Cruise.
In 2001, Tom Cruise stunned Kidman when he decided to file for divorce without her knowledge (sound familiar?). Two years later, she nabbed her Oscar, but the moment made her take a pause in her life. Kidman opened up to Harper’s Bazaar for Australia’s December issue about the weird time in her life.
Nicole Kidman said winning the coveted award, “can show you the emptiness of your own life, which is kind of what it showed me. I was having professional success and my personal life was struggling.”
Kidman, who was once quiet about her divorce with Tom Cruise, is now choosing to be vocal about her past with her ex-husband. Perhaps it’s because she has hindsight now that she’s married to Keith Urban, who she calls her “great love.”
Discussing how playing Virginia Woolf in The Hours helped the actress through the rough time, Kidman told Vanity Fair:
“Walking into the river with those stones in my pockets — I chose life. At the time, I was at a low point, and by playing her, it put me into a place of appreciating life.”
Of her relationship with Cruise, Kidman had told Variety that it was “intoxicating” in many ways, and claimed that the only two who could possibly understand was Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt. Our guess is because of the level of scrutiny and public fascination they endure.
Kidman said of the time she spent with Cruise:
“There is something about that sort of existence that, if you really focus on each other and you’re in that bubble, it’s very intoxicating, because it’s just the two of you.”
Nicole Kidman now has two children with Keith Urban, Sunday, 5, and Faith, 2. In addition she has two adopted children with Tom Cruise, Isabella, 20, and Connor, 18.