Former Bachelorette Ali Fedotowsky had dinner with Gia Allemand one week before the latter’s suicide, and regrets that she didn’t see that her friend was in pain.
“We had dinner together, just her and I, and talked about life and talked about what she wanted to do, the next steps of her life. I know there were things she was going through, things that will always remain between me and her. But I didn’t see it at all, not at all, and I just wish I had seen something,” Fedotowsky told E! News’ Giuliana Rancic through tears.
“You can’t help but play the conversation back in your head over and over and over and wish you could have done something. And knowing how hurt I am and how I feel, I just can’t even imagine what she was going through, or her family… So I just hope we remember her for how wonderful she was.”
Fedotowsky also added that not everyone in the Bachelor family gets along, but that 29-year-old Allemand was someone that nearly everyone loved.
“Gia was one of those people that everyone really loved. It’s really sad to think that she was in that much pain,” she said. “If she had said something to any one of us, we would have been there.”
Allemand reportedly hung herself early last week, and was discovered by her boyfriend, NBA star Ryan Anderson. She was rushed to the hospital last Monday, and taken off life support by her family on Wednesday.
Various rumors have suggested that Allemand was depressed over recent contention in her relationship, but her mother has denied all rumors about her emotional well-being. If Fedotowsky’s words are anything to go by, it seems that even Allemand’s closest friends couldn’t tell that she was depressed, or even considering suicide.
“You can’t help but play the conversation back in your head over and over and over and wish you could have done something,” she said. “And knowing how hurt I am and how I feel, I just can’t even imagine what she was going through, or her family…So I just hope we remember her for how wonderful she was.”