Courtney Stodden’s Battle With Depression, Anxiety, And Substance Abuse Following A Miscarriage

Courtney Stodden sat down with The Doctors to seek help after she realized she had been self-medicating to cope with her depression and miscarriage. Stodden revealed she had been indulging in wine while taking prescribed anti-anxiety medication.

“I suffer from depression and also I suffer from immense anxiety and I don’t know if I’m coping in the most healthy way. I am partying a little too hard probably.”

Stodden has admitted that the manner in which she is coping with her depression is harmful. Stodden said she also indulges in medical marijuana in addition to her anti-anxiety medication, according to Fox News. Stodden said she uses these substances because “otherwise I literally feel like I’ll jump out the window.”

The reality star said she understands her choices are not healthy, and this is the reason she has chosen to seek help.

“If I continue down this path, I’m going to end up in a bad place.”

Stodden was pregnant with Lost star, Doug Hutchison’s child, and she sadly suffered a miscarriage at 13-weeks. Now, the former teen bride is dealing with her separation and soon-to-be divorce from her ex, Doug Hutchison. Courtney and Doug married when she was just 16-years-old. Courtney’s mother granted permission for her daughter to wed 51-year-old Doug.

“My coping mechanism, I feel could literally lead to a disastrous, vicious situation.”

Courtney concluded that she is willing to take any therapy and advice available to her saying, “I’ll take all the therapy I can get.” During the beginning of her pregnancy, Courtney was very vocal about her depression, and since the star had a miscarriage, it seems the depression has hit the Couples Therapy star harder than ever.

“I suffer from depression…My depression affects my appetite, sleeping patterns and overall perspective on life. At times, I have severe insomnia and other times I find myself sleeping too much. I have feelings of hopelessness but experience many moments of absolute euphoria.”

Following her miscarriage, at the advice of her therapist, Stodden purchased a “reborn baby” doll to help her cope with the devastating loss of the couple’s unborn child. On Instagram, Stodden posted the unboxing of the life-like doll to her account.

Courtney was also spotted out and about in Los Angeles affectionately cradling her new “reborn baby” doll. The aspiring singer made a run to the local coffee shop for an iced coffee.

During her grieving, Stodden revealed the healing effects of the baby doll to Us Weekly.

“It’s been surprisingly healing having him here with me… When I hold him, I feel incredibly calm. He offers a soothing effect that I need at this point in time.” Courtney tweeted, “Having a hard day #sad.” Courtney also posted a few concerning photos of herself holding a glass filled with what looks to be champagne while revealing how lonely and sad she is currently feeling. Stodden even mentions she’s using alcohol to numb her feelings of “deep loneliness.”

After the experience of losing a child, Stodden penned an open letter to her unborn baby. This would have been the first child for both Courtney and Doug Hutchinson. Stodden posted the heartfelt letter to her Instagram account.

“My precious Angel…I never had a chance to hold your tiny hand. Never will I get to kiss your little warm feet. Never will I have the fortune to look into your precious eyes. … I’ll never get over this … losing you. I hope that you know I wanted to give you life … a beautiful life — and desired so much to watch you grow into an incredible human being. I know that you’re my guardian angel.”

During this time, the former teen bride took to her Instagram account to share an image with an inspiring message for other mothers who have lost a baby in the same manner.

“Babies lost in the womb were never touched by fear, they were never cold, never hungry, never alone & importantly always knew love.”

Courtney Stodden made headlines in 2011 when she was 16-years-old and married the 51-year-old actor, Doug Hutchinson in Las Vegas, Nevada. The couple met when Courtney went to take acting lessons from Doug. In 2012, the couple created a stir in VH1’s Couples Therapy house.

During this time, the couple wanted to work on their marriage issues that resulted from their age difference. Instead, Courtney’s minimal clothing and heavy flirting with the male cast members caused a stir. Many of the cast mates were distracted by Courtney Stodden being only 17-years-old on the show and referred to Doug as a “predator.”

The couple broke up in 2013, but they quickly reconciled nine months later and had plans to renew their vows. Before their separation, Courtney and Doug were approaching their fifth wedding anniversary. Courtney had great things to say about her marriage, according to Cosmopolitan.

“Our relationship right now is really, really good…We’re really strong and we’re very happy. We’re getting ready to celebrate our fifth wedding anniversary and we’re absolutely going to renew our vows for our fifth wedding anniversary. So yeah,we’re doing really, really well!”

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