Sinead O’Connor’s suicide note, posted to her Facebook timeline early in the morning of Sunday, November 29, “triggered international concern” and prompted a nationwide search for the 48-year-old singer.
“Howling crying for weeks. And been told by them all to go f*** myself. I’m invisible. I don’t matter a shred to anyone.”
The note was described as “disturbing” and “distressing” as fans reacted and family and friends scrambled to find O’Connor in time.
Sinead O’Connor posted a distressing status which includes “I have taken an overdose” and reads like a suicide note https://t.co/VGUkNA1GFr
— billboard (@billboard) November 29, 2015
O’Connor’s “heart-rending message” referred to domestic abuse and Sinead’s feeling of betrayal by friends and family. In the emotional suicide note, Sinead claimed to have taken an “overdose of pills,” and said that she was at a hotel in Ireland using a different name. O’Connor expressed her pain, and communicated her overdose decision, in a 450-word post to the social media site, after having previously posted “a series of other personal messages.”
“I’m invisible. I don’t matter a shred to anyone. No one has come near me. I’ve died a million times already with the pain of it.”
Sinead wrote about the “appalling cruelty” she alleges on the part of her family, including her husband, children, and “even her son’s girlfriend” in the accusations. According to TMZ, the Nothing Compares 2 U singer believes that her family is conspiring to keep her away from her “babies” ever since she had a hysterectomy last August.
Irish singer-songwriter Sinead O’Connor posts alleged suicide note to her official Facebook page. See: pic.twitter.com/4cPuAHZNz1
— Derek Bowler (@BowlerDerek) November 29, 2015
Fans responded immediately and in huge numbers. Within hours, over a thousand “messages of support” filled Sinead’s timeline, as fans begged her to reconsider and offered the singer their reassurances. Many others pressured the Gardaí (Irish police) to search for O’Connor to try and prevent her from carrying out the suicide threat. “Please find Sinead!” wrote one Twitter user, while another asked anyone who has seen Sinead O’Connor “to get in touch with the Gardai.”
— Pookie Huny (@PookieHuny) November 29, 2015
URGENT: if anyone has seen Sinead O’Connor please contact the Gardaí immediately.: Sinead O’Connor posted an a… https://t.co/Is5HCysWQx
— IAteDublin.com (@iatedublin) November 29, 2015
According to Gardaí in Dublin, O’Connor was quickly located by police and reported to be “safe and sound.”
— Irish Sun (@IrishSunOnline) November 29, 2015
O’Connor is now receiving medical treatment and is hospitalized.
According to the Telegraph, Sinead’s suicidal thoughts and mental health issues have been in the news often, and she’s been very open about her struggles. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder (previously called manic depression), O’Connor has been in and out of hospitals “on several occasions.”
Last July, O’Connor’s agent released a statement cancelling her entire summer tour. The tour was to have included headlining at several North American festivals. The statement “pointed to medical reasons” for the cancellation.
The mother of four, whose children range in age from 9 to 28, is married to therapist Barry Herridge. Sinead met Herridge on the Internet, and married him in Las Vegas in 2011. Sinead and Barry split after only 17 days, but reunited with a renewal of marriage vows in 2014. O’Connor’s recent thoughts seem to be likely to lead to more marriage upheaval.
“There is only so much any woman can be expected to bear.”
The Daily Mail reports that the “rambling messages” began on November 28, and included several comments about the music industry, O’Connor threatened to quit music, saying that music was “over” for her, and blaming music for the position she was in. “I need a new home,” she wrote. “And a new job. A new life… Music is over for me. Music did this. It rendered me invisible. Murdered my soul. I’m never going back to music.”
Sinead went so far as to say that she had “lost everything” and insisted that she would not be able to “eat Christmas dinner with these people [her family] ever again.”
Fans are offering continued support to O’Connor on Twitter. Twitter use Stephen Byrne said what many fans are thinking: that he hopes Sinead finds peace within herself.
The situation with Sinead O’Connor is so sad I hope she can get the help she needs and finds peace within herself.
— Stephen Byrne (@altirishmusic) November 29, 2015
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